diamondxskulls

"You're like the fire, a burning flame. One which keeps me warm but burns me when I get close but you draw me to your light like a moth so helplessly i'm captured and in a daze."

;
Butterflies were flying rapidly in my tummy
I couldn't catch my breadth... was thinking of your smile.
was thinking how such a simple thing could make me blush,
could make my heart beat faster...

Thought I was being foolish for being caught up in my fantasy
but to my defense, your heart was in sync with mine;)
I may not know right now and nothing may make perfect sense,
but i'm not letting negative influences interrupt this vision of clarity tonight.
"Dear diary, busy is what you make of it to be"
XOXO

RAAAWWWRRRRRRR
jacjac is high
very very high....
just read this,
"The possibility of new beginnings seem to dominate the day today, Scorpio. You may experience forgiveness, or you may give someone else a second chance, but either way, you'll have a personal experience with closing the door on the past. All you have to do is to be willing to accept change, and let go of whatever is holding you back. Be careful not to hold on to any grudges, and make sure you don't reference your present situation to the worst of the past. Find the meaning in past problems and move on, because this is a day of hope and encouragement for you."
MOVE ON!~
Crazy partying last night,
made sure I cheers to new beginnings and drank to my heart's content!
now... i feel like.... oohhh wooo uh ohh

xoxo

It's such a dirty mess so perfect that it's best
But it's my love my blood my bloody valentine
Sometimes i wanna leave
But then I watch you next to me
My blood my love my bloody valentine
Maybe I should but I can't just walk away
You tried to convince me once again that I should stay
Through all the brokeness but my bleeding heart must confess
I love my love my bloody valentine

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i wanna scream to my lungs just give up on me! big 21 coming round the corner and honestly, i'm still not feeling it... yet i suppose? this is crazy, 20 years of my life has gone past and yet I still can't find the one thing i'm looking for. What is it with me having to analyze everything and anyone that comes in my way. The year is quickly coming to an end and i'm at point blank. 2009 has seriously come to pass way too quickly for me to grasp... i know I shouldn't be concluding my year up so soon but seriously can life be anymore of a joke than this? I mean the months just seem to fly pass so fast and I haven't had the time to sit and reflect over the changes that I now have to live with. If only I had known the things I know now from the beginning... maybe things wouldn't be the way they are now... hey, guess I really did grow up after all...

You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You're just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway
(You know it's just too little too late)

Got me some broken butterfly wings in my pocket,
trying to make sense of how such a beautiful creation can be so fragile...

In the light of day when everything seems so right,
i come to wonder how a wandering thought can drive a person insane...
to yearn, to crave, to change into someone or something that you never knew was capable of.

Seeing tonite as another monochrome night,
with a dash of pink and whole lot of monday blues...
trying to get some eye shut and block out those voices in my head.

Random notes I should take note of: Sometimes when you feel like the world you're living in doesn't make sense anymore, just take a moment to appreciate the simple moments in life to help ease the pain. Don't beat yourself up for enjoying your life because at least when you smile you realize you are capable of feelings. Respect yourself and don't let rumors sway you in the wrong direction, trust yourself. Respect the past, present and future and take each day as a life experience... Don't give up on the good times and never let anyone take away your dream. Dreams may set us up for empty hopes but at least they don't cost a thing and we should be thankful for that. xoxo

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know
why
Why
I don't know